Friday, March 26, 2010

On my mind

There are a few things on my mind this afternoon. I'm thinking about the nap that I was looking forward to all morning, that never took place due to the noise of construction across the street. I'm thinking about how grateful I am that Elliana & I have met friends in our neighborhood to provide daily fun and laughs. I'm thinking that I really should have waited until AFTER Easter to break open the bag of jellybeans I am currently snacking on.

But most of all, I am thinking about how incredibly blessed I am to be the mama of this little girl and the wife of my adorable husband. Just look at how adorable they are as they watch basketball and eat potato chips. They sure make my heart happy.





Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Oh Doh!

Oh Doh! Two simple words, one simple phrase, and about the best thing I've probably ever heard Elliana say. Sure, Elliana has said this a million times when trying to say "Oh, no!". She also says more than this and continues to learn more and more words, but the reason this phrase is so important isn't because of what it means, it is because of one time she said it.

Let's take a step back a couple days, and maybe it will all make sense. The day, Saturday, March 6, 2010 was just about the most beautiful day of the year to that point. Sun shining, blue sky, warm air. It was a weekend and we were spending our usual time as a family. What better way to spend the day than to go to the park and go for a walk? So we ran some errands in the morning, had some lunch, and headed out to the park.

We took a walk, over 5 miles, while Elliana took a nap in her stroller. We rode the swings, walked around the lake, and soaked in some sun. Truthfully, it was the perfect day. That is before it went perfectly wrong.

On the way home from the park, our little chatter box in the back seat got a little quiet. Interesting, I thought, she had already taken a nap. I glance in the rearview, which reflects off the mirror for the car seat which puts Elliana in my view. Not sleeping, but certainly quite. Ashley takes a look; yep, not sleeping. "Hey Elliana, everything alright?": no response. Unusual. Hmmm. "Elliana?" Nothing. Something's wrong.

Ashely began to investigate. We can hear her breathing, but she isn't responding. Urgency begins to creep into mind, but really it hasn't settled in. Ashely crawls to the backseat, I'm driving 70 MPH. Ashley confirms something is really wrong. Elliana isn't responding, she isn't moving, she is staring into nothingness, and isn't getting any better.

Details of what follow aren't critical, but in summary it means a 911 call, paramedics, ambulance, emergency room, and home: yes, we all came home, thank God.

When we reached the emergency room, Elliana was moving but still hadn't spoken or made a noise, and certainly had lost every bit of her personality we had come to love. We began asking if this is how she would be FOREVER. We were reassured it was temporary, but we had our doubts.

We were told Elliana had suffered a febrile seizure. SEIZURE? Yes, SEIZURE. They told us how this is fairly common and this type of seizure is caused by a spike in body temperature (fever) in infants and toddlers. It was something I had never known of and will never forget.

We sat impatiently waiting for something to happen with Elliana. She still would't talk to us, didn't cry, didn't laugh, and honestly the worst thoughts and possibilities came to my mind. Then it happened. The pacifier she had been holding fell to the floor and a little voice that followed, "Oh Doh!", instantly brought tears of joy to Ashley and I. That is our little girl, she is "coming back to life". Nothing could have made me happier in that moment. As time passed, everything we know Elliana can say and do came back and we were given our little girl back. Yes, our little girl was back and we could stop to be grateful.

She has been home for a couple days and we have been keeping her fever under control as much as we can. They tell us this seizure will have no long terms effects but Elliana could be prone to it happening again.

So now you can see why two little words, one little phrase can mean so much. Seeing your child staring blankly, emotionless, immobile is something I could never wish upon anyone. And after seeing such a thing, those first words, "Oh Doh!" mean the world to Ashley and I on a day we will never forget.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Toothless no more

After 12 months and three weeks of no teeth, Elliana is no longer tooth-less. Tooth # 1 began to make an appearance on January 21st. Just this little tooth poking it's way through Elli's tiny red gum. The upper front tooth showed up later that week and both the upper and lower tooth are still coming in strong.

Less than three weeks since that first tooth appearance, tooth # 3 and # 4 are beginning to surface as well. It is so odd to see how these little teeth are already changing the smile that we are so used to...the smile that we love.

Overall, I would say that Elliana is a tropper during the teething process. She still gives smiles through the snot, cough and aches that are associated with those teeth arriving. It is hard to watch our little girl not feel tip-top, but we know that this is a short term issue with a positive long term benefit....an even more beautiful smile on our tiny daughter. :)

Friday, January 22, 2010

Simple Reminder

So many times, it is easy to get bogged down with chores, errands and a never ending to-do list. As I sit with daughter watching her favorite show, I am reminded that all of those things can wait. For there is no where else I'd rather be.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

One Year Ago


One year ago today, I was sitting in a hospital bed holding a tiny newborn...feeling completely overwhelmed at the idea that I am now responsible for another human's life. And not just any human, my daughter. I remember fears, doubts, worries, excitement and anticipation of the future and all that lay ahead in the coming years.

Looking back over the past year, I have to admit that I have had all of the above emotions many times over. But, in addition...I have had far more emotions than I ever would have imagined. I have happiness and joy in everyday things. Laughter in unexpected moments, more love for my husband than I previously knew was possible (and I really loved him BEFORE!), an overwhelming sense of pride for my family, a sense of purpose in my daily life as a mom. As I type, I am realizing that I could spill out pages of thoughts and lessons learned from my first year as a mom. Instead, I will revisit the reason for this post....my precious Elliana.

Elliana literally translates into "answered prayer," and that she is. Years before we were ready for children, T.J. and I prayed for the family we would someday have. Elliana has surpassed any and all expectations I had about a baby. Happy, healthy and an amazing smile and personality to boot. We are one incredibly blessed family. And so, without further rambling from this emotional mama of an incredible one year old...all I have left to say is Happy Birthday Elliana!